Falling
floating
drifting alone
through darkness
through silence,
through ages untold.
Reaching,
pleading,
for a hand to hold
frightened
uncertain,
shivering from cold
Falling,
still falling,
fearing I'll hit
the bottom
of a dark
and lonely pit.
"Who'll catch me?"
I plead
to the silence around
fearing no answer
can truly
be found
"Who'll catch me?"
I wonder
and then realize
I'm no longer falling
and I open
my eyes . . . . . .
. . . . . who will I find?
I don't know what to do.
I feel lost and all alone.
A frightened young woman
Who's wandered far from home.
There's darkness all behind me
And to my left and to my right
And on the road in front of me
Nothing's left in sight.
I want to call for help
Though I'm not sure that I should
Since I'm the one who got here
By making the biggest mess I could
I don't think that I deserve
The help someone would give
Sometimes I still feel
That I shouldn't even live.
If I've changed so very much
Inside like he's said
Then why are the words to this
Echoing in my head?
The anger burns inside me
Burn brighter than a flame
But like a flame it dies away
Almost faster than it came
The fear inside me eats away
Lasts longer than anger does
It wipes away the rational
The logic, the whys, the cause
Depression is a chronic mood
It never dies away
Causing thoughts of suicide
To plague me every day.
Combine the three with confusion
And take away the tears
And that's what's been inside me
For the many, many years
Dark clouds start surrounding
A storm brew deep inside
The lightning and the thunder
Make me want to hide
The lies that I've been told
were truth to just believe
And took away the sunny days
That may have been in me.
So all I see is darkness
And the gloom and despair
When once I was so cheerful
Someone who really cared
Now I feel confused
And lost without a trace
Wondering just who I am
Trying to find a place
Will I ever learn
Just who I was meant to be?
Or will I flounder lost
Finally drowning in the sea?