Without you here, the world seems bleak,
Nothing seems quite right.
With you near, I can go on,
For you are my guiding light.
I close my eyes and see your face,
And it holds me through the night.
But, I want to hold you close to me
Under the moon so bright.
One day I hope to open my eyes
And find to my delight,
That you are really next to me
And everything's all-right.
Confusion reigns in my mind
As I ask the question, "who am I?"
Alone in a world of couples and pairs
Feeling as though I'm really not there
Friends are nice, but they can't replace
A lover's hand or a warm embrace
Alone I fear I'll be for always
Without a lover to call my name
To care when I'm sick, to be my one and only
To promise that I shall never be lonely
But, I'll keep searching and maybe one day
I'll find the true love that never strays.
I'm groping for the reason
that my mind has been denied
the hope and love and happiness
I thought could never be mine
I turned toward the Darkness
anger harbored in my soul
and Hate began to fester
like some kind of slimy mold
The Devil in me tried
to turn me from the light
though part of me wished to go
the other wished to fight
And now it seems I'm winning
in a way I never knew
coming to accept the things
which before I would eschew
Part of the reason's I'm ready
to hear what I refused to believe
the other part is love
tender, complex, and pure
But, now I stand to lose him
as I always have before
I don't think I could take it
don't think I could endure
So let me hope that somehow
it all works for the best
for I really don't wish to return
to my life being trivial at best.