I wished very long ago
never to be alone
Not knowing what that
one innocent wish
would do to shatter my soul
Alone yet not
here but there
I'm trapped in a shadow
world where
nightmares walk
Thoughts not mine
entwine themselves
Confuse me, chase me
and take me over
Until reality seems
the nightmare and
My waking dream
becomes my world
I touch no one
I'm a dream
that floats through
the world, never alone
Yet, lonely
as the moon
Pain and anguish
Hope and rage
Color my world
dark and dreary
I strike out at
those who say they love
me but I don't
know the reason why
I want to die
but I fear the
demons that
haunt me always
Always. Never at peace
never alone, I
feel madness creeping in.
Fear has become
so common that
almost I am numb
Until I see the shadow
move and I know
I'm not alone
Death beckons me
calls me as they
so often do.
Tired of fighting
I drift farther
and farther away
Sink into the
darkness; slowly
it enfolds me, blinds me
rapes my mind and
further perverts my
twisted soul
But, I don't stop
it, my strength is
gone and I find
by now I want
it. If just to end
the cold uncertainty
how could such hatred
develop in me
drive me on as
almost an obsession
with no specific target
simply the urge to hurt
to destroy those
who say they care
to cause pain
because it's all
I know
love is lost
to me
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