What did I do to deserve this?
What did I do to deserve this torture?
What did I do to deserve this pain?
How much longer do I have to suffer?
What, from this, can I possibly gain?
I've probably done alot of things in my life
that were better left undone.
But, tell me which I'm being punished for,
tell me just which one.
All I did was try to rid
the earth of my existence.
Is that really a terrible thing?
Is it really sadistic?
I felt at the time it was best to do,
it wasn't my first attempt.
Why, this time, were the stakes so high
and all the other times were exempt?
If I'd never written letters to
all my friends back home,
The truth is, I would have just gone on,
and no one would have known.
Nothing's Changed
They think that I have gotten better, they think I'm dealing with it.
The truth is, I just write these poems, while inside I feel like shit.
I've learned to hide the most painful scars deep inside my mind and soul,
Where only I can see and feel them, where only I can know.
To the world, I've gotten better, to the world, I'm happy, carefree.
But, the truth is, nothing has changed, nothing inside of me.
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